after makin tat video . . . hmm.. ii just realised tat how our friendship... maybe not as strong but at least ii noe ii've dhe memory of tat ..
kinndda feelin FREEDOM-LESS!!! ii cant go out for dhe whole holidae.. &was wat my mother like to do.. just lock me up in dhe hse.. doing things she wanna me to do.. ii hate it! ii wanna bak my freedom.. kinndda SAD . . . dunno larh . . . why is she controllin so hard... dun even let me out for one single dae.. gonna be bored to death in dhe room bah..
dun even wanna to bother her in one way or another. . . thikkin of a way out . . . but thr isnt a way.... well ; shld be guai guai bah.. might as well as stayin at home to study for dhe comin exams.. exams bak.. im pretty sure im hyper gain . . . free times ; more freedom ; more &more !!!!! life isnt hard if freedom isnt lost .. memories isnt forgotten..
shld ii be happi for more freedom or not.. shld ii be sad for dhe lost friendships .. shld ii even cry for lost freedom?
cryin doesnt solve things but ii noe... at least ii've let out my sadness and anger... cryin in my heart and no one would even noe.. is just like rainin.. when it rains .. ; time starts to pass slowly.. ppl starts to be sad for not going out...
well ' ; gotta some encourage b4 ii answered dhe question . . . nidda guts...
rain starts.. poOl gone.. cant even get out of hse... wanna go swimmin and everything seems just like tat gone.. but why; plannin to have a good swim .. but blame on me...
shld have early plans for swimmin bah.. shld ii or not gonna swimmin.. depends bah.. december holidae chalet not booked yet.. nidda find place... hais... best is at downtown thr bah.. at least can realli enjoy dhe water in dhe wild wild wet.. and ESCAPE... hoppin bah... hope it isnt X . . so ii can pay for dhe sick of my family.. BROKE soOn~
well ; im 100% sorri ... ii promise you tat ii would go out when you jio me.. but den ii cant... honesty ; you're not givin me any stress.. dun blame yrself for giivin me anii stress bah... gonna safra now =) after ii bathed =x hope can meet bah =)
Monday, September 3, 2007, 4:00 PM